Well I'm back at my 3:00 time slot which is good, since I'm not so tired and my motivation is higher. Had lucky charms for breakfast so I'm feeling good. Had Lucky Charms for lunch too, and sunflower seeds for a snack. Not exactly on the list of foods provided by Tony. My back aches today, which isn't exactly new territory, my back aches often because of my boobs. I feel like I do after I have a lot of walking or climbing stairs to do the day before. I tried and tried to get my back to pop this morning, but I wasn't able to. It feels all tight. Despite all of this I felt all fired up to try Kenpo X. And now that I'm done I kind of have mixed feelings.
This workout was the closest to cardio that I've done so far. Which is a good thing because I want to lose weight and need to do a little cardio. But I didn't feel particularly challenged by it. Basically it was a series of Karate exercises. I'm thinking I need a punching bag to really get the full effect of the workout. I feel weird throwing punches without connecting with anything. If I throw too hard I snap my joints, and if I don't throw my body weight behind it then I'm not getting much of a workout.
However, when I managed to keep pace with everyone else I stayed moving pretty much the whole time so that was good. I did sweat. And I liked the lunging and kicking. I guess I just feel that this isn't the most effective workout, but then again I don't think I'm doing it properly so I'll try again next week and try to make sure I'm putting plenty of ooommmppfff behind those punches.
Because I want to lose weight as well as build muscle I'm thinking about maybe doing some cardio in the mornings. Maybe going for a job. The hard cold truth of the matter is that my motivation in the morning is at an all time low. I love my pillows and do not want to leave the warm snug cocoon of my bed early to sweat and jump. I may have the best intentions in the afternoon after my workout but I know myself well enough that I will put it off if I try for a morning workout. Maybe I could try to take a run in the evenings after dinner.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Legs and Back, Ab Ripper X
I did pretty good with dinner. Turkey, with Gravy of course. but instead of potato's we had pasta and veggies. I made bread and stuffing as well but did not indulge, just fed it to everyone else. There were only a few dishes and I had the kids tackle them so I could get into my workout before I got too tired. Today was Legs and Back as well as Ab Ripper X.
Legs and Back was an hour long and was a pretty good workout. I have very strong legs and i guess to exercise my back there were a lot of thigh exercises like lunges. I was able to keep up pretty good on these. I went slower, because i want the form to be right and I don't want to cheat. So I didn't do as many reps. But I didn't need to stop as often to suck down water and breath heavily and dramatically during those exercises. I'm sure I pushed myself hard enough to feel it tomorrow. There were also some pull up exercises. These are very very hard for me. I'm using a resistance band because I probably couldn't do a real pull up if my life depended on it, but I feel very good about my progress here. I did these all the way down on the ground and with proper form for most of them. I managed to get a decent amount of reps in too. I might upgrade to the next resistance band next time we do pull ups. So even though I'm not keeping up, I definitely am improving.
I am really excited about he Ab Ripper X workout. It's only twenty minutes long which I think makes it easier for me. This is now the third time that I've done the workout and there was VAST improvement. Even with having been sick. I promised myself that I wasn't going to cheat. So I'm not rocking around, coming up on my side, or using my arms to help myself up. I'm doing everything with proper form. So for the first two workouts my situps were pretty sad. Tony likes you to keep your arms out in front so that you can't use them to cheat and I mostly just strained to get up and didn't really do that many reps. This time I was able to strain hard enough to get up properly several times. This is the first time since I've started that I've seen tangible improvement in my form so I'm really excited tonight. The exercises where you lift your legs from the lower abdomen are easier for me and I was able to do quite a few more reps tonight as well. At the end, Tony does this twist around exercise where you put your hands together and your feet up and then twist around to touch your hands to the ground on each side. I'm really slow at it because I'm trying to actually do the form properly. I was actually able to touch the ground on each side a couple times which again is an improvement.
Now my biggest problem is that I'm absolutely starving. I'm going to take a quick shower to de-stink and then I think I'm going to mack on those veggies and pasta to calm my craving. There is snack pack of pudding in the fridge for after school snacks for kids and I'm dying to smash on it. Maybe I'll also eat some of these hard boiled eggs minus the yolks. I only have four dozen to eat, lol.
Legs and Back was an hour long and was a pretty good workout. I have very strong legs and i guess to exercise my back there were a lot of thigh exercises like lunges. I was able to keep up pretty good on these. I went slower, because i want the form to be right and I don't want to cheat. So I didn't do as many reps. But I didn't need to stop as often to suck down water and breath heavily and dramatically during those exercises. I'm sure I pushed myself hard enough to feel it tomorrow. There were also some pull up exercises. These are very very hard for me. I'm using a resistance band because I probably couldn't do a real pull up if my life depended on it, but I feel very good about my progress here. I did these all the way down on the ground and with proper form for most of them. I managed to get a decent amount of reps in too. I might upgrade to the next resistance band next time we do pull ups. So even though I'm not keeping up, I definitely am improving.
I am really excited about he Ab Ripper X workout. It's only twenty minutes long which I think makes it easier for me. This is now the third time that I've done the workout and there was VAST improvement. Even with having been sick. I promised myself that I wasn't going to cheat. So I'm not rocking around, coming up on my side, or using my arms to help myself up. I'm doing everything with proper form. So for the first two workouts my situps were pretty sad. Tony likes you to keep your arms out in front so that you can't use them to cheat and I mostly just strained to get up and didn't really do that many reps. This time I was able to strain hard enough to get up properly several times. This is the first time since I've started that I've seen tangible improvement in my form so I'm really excited tonight. The exercises where you lift your legs from the lower abdomen are easier for me and I was able to do quite a few more reps tonight as well. At the end, Tony does this twist around exercise where you put your hands together and your feet up and then twist around to touch your hands to the ground on each side. I'm really slow at it because I'm trying to actually do the form properly. I was actually able to touch the ground on each side a couple times which again is an improvement.
Now my biggest problem is that I'm absolutely starving. I'm going to take a quick shower to de-stink and then I think I'm going to mack on those veggies and pasta to calm my craving. There is snack pack of pudding in the fridge for after school snacks for kids and I'm dying to smash on it. Maybe I'll also eat some of these hard boiled eggs minus the yolks. I only have four dozen to eat, lol.
Ok, Back Again
Well I got deathly ill for two days, then I had to work double shifts to make it up, then I had Easter to deal with. A laundry list of excuses I know. I actually tried to do my Yoga workout the other day but I was still feeling dizzy and weak. I don't usually get sick so I wonder if pushing myself so hard lowered my resistance. I'm sure it will be good for me in the long run. Also I made the mistake of climbing on the scale prematurely and was dissapointed by my lack of results. So my motivation flagged for a minute. But I'm not giving up so yesterday after work I dove back in with the Yoga workout. I worked an extra long shift and thought that Yoga would be a good way to ease back into the P90X.
I was so wrong. There was nothing easy about it. For starters it's really long. An hour and a half. By the end my limbs were shaking so bad I could barely get into position. For second I put my full body weight on muscles that I usually don't use. For third, my balance isn't that good so some of these positions are a real struggle to keep from pushing over.
On the good side, it was fun. All three of my kids got into it and enjoyed it. I started off by myself and one by one they were there with me doing the poses. It made the workout much easier to have company. Still I have to say that this is one of the harder workouts. I think it's because you hold the poses while your muscles shake and strain. Other exercises you are moving, but with Yoga you stay still alot and hold in positions that strain your balance and your muscles. However, I'm not really sore this morning. Just a little weak in the muscles, like taffy. My back feels like I need a good stretch. I did some of those stretches on my knees where you collapse your spine and stretch it out and it felt really good. I think that my back muscles were probably the main muscles affected by my Yoga. Which is good because my back hurts a lot from carrying around my top heavy boobs. I've been told that back exercises will help with that.
I know that my form was awful on a lot of these. I'm pretty chunky in the thighs and middle and I'm far from limber. I think this will be a good challenge for me and is something I'll see a really good improvement on over time so I can feel that I'm getting somewhere. I'm glad to be back on task with my workouts. And my diet too. I splurged on Easter. Having ham and potatoes and bread. Oh how I love bread. But for the most part I ate well. I was sick and didn't eat anything for two days and then could barely hold down soup and crackers so it wasn't like I was having cakes and pies. Today I was especially careful with my eating. Having an egg white spinach omelet for breakfast which actually turned out to be pretty good. I'll probably be going back to that one a lot since I don't like a lot of things on the menu. I brought an avocado with me for snack and then had a tuna sandwich for lunch.
I'm going to put dinner on the table and then do my workout for today. Then I'll log back on and let you know how it goes.
I was so wrong. There was nothing easy about it. For starters it's really long. An hour and a half. By the end my limbs were shaking so bad I could barely get into position. For second I put my full body weight on muscles that I usually don't use. For third, my balance isn't that good so some of these positions are a real struggle to keep from pushing over.
On the good side, it was fun. All three of my kids got into it and enjoyed it. I started off by myself and one by one they were there with me doing the poses. It made the workout much easier to have company. Still I have to say that this is one of the harder workouts. I think it's because you hold the poses while your muscles shake and strain. Other exercises you are moving, but with Yoga you stay still alot and hold in positions that strain your balance and your muscles. However, I'm not really sore this morning. Just a little weak in the muscles, like taffy. My back feels like I need a good stretch. I did some of those stretches on my knees where you collapse your spine and stretch it out and it felt really good. I think that my back muscles were probably the main muscles affected by my Yoga. Which is good because my back hurts a lot from carrying around my top heavy boobs. I've been told that back exercises will help with that.
I know that my form was awful on a lot of these. I'm pretty chunky in the thighs and middle and I'm far from limber. I think this will be a good challenge for me and is something I'll see a really good improvement on over time so I can feel that I'm getting somewhere. I'm glad to be back on task with my workouts. And my diet too. I splurged on Easter. Having ham and potatoes and bread. Oh how I love bread. But for the most part I ate well. I was sick and didn't eat anything for two days and then could barely hold down soup and crackers so it wasn't like I was having cakes and pies. Today I was especially careful with my eating. Having an egg white spinach omelet for breakfast which actually turned out to be pretty good. I'll probably be going back to that one a lot since I don't like a lot of things on the menu. I brought an avocado with me for snack and then had a tuna sandwich for lunch.
I'm going to put dinner on the table and then do my workout for today. Then I'll log back on and let you know how it goes.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Day 3, 87 Days to go
My daughter is so sweet, she brought me breakfast in bed this morning. I ate every delicious fattening bite of my toaster struedel because I didn't have the heart to tell her it wasn't approved diet food. It did have blueberries which is why she made it for me, because blueberries are on my list of foods to eat. I had an avocado for a snack and am eating way less than I usually do. I'm usually a eat till I'm full kind of girl and my portions really aren't satisfying me, especially with my upped calorie burn. I need to make sure that I'm getting healthy foods in me so that I don't crash. So I had some nuts to hold me over till lunch and then had not only a baked chicken breast but also some cottage cheese and fruit. I can't eat the cottage cheese without the fruit. Still really hungry but sticking it out. I will not crash my kitchen and have cookies today. :)
I am pretty sore today, my legs and butt are really tender. But I'm taking that as a positive. I did some stretching first thing and took a walk before I went to work so I could keep my muscles loose. Today is Arms and Shoulders and I was looking forward to it. I know that you can't target a specific area of the body for weight loss but this is definitely a place that I want some definition. My flabby arms are the second most upsetting part of my body. I also have ab ripper. As much as I want to build that muscle, I'm hurting today pretty good. So I stood in front of my mirror starkers for a while before I put my workout clothes. I wanted to burn into my brain why I was doing this so I didn't half ass my workout. I think it really helped. I needed the extra motivation because my kids pretty much abandoned me to play with friends today so it was pretty much me against the pain without any lighthearted joking and encouragement. I really missed that today and it made my workout a lot harder. I wish I had a bigger living room so I could have someone else do this with me, but it's pretty cramped with one mat.
So shoulders and arms was mostly working with weights. These workouts are targeted more towards men who want to get ripped so it focused a lot on shoulders. I don't necessarily want to build huge shoulders so I stuck with the 8 pound weights. I didn't make it to the 12 to 15 reps on any of the shoulder lifts so I have plenty of room to improve there. Other lifts I did make the 12 reps so I think I might need to invest in a heavier set of weights. I think I'm going to by some 10 pound weights before next weeks workout. I'm already stretched pretty thin financially with just the cost of the workouts so it's not really feasible for me to go out and buy a lot of new equipment. I really liked the exercises that focused on that triceps muscle, that's where my flab is and those were hard. I dropped down to 5 pounds on the reverse ones so that I could do some. I made it to the end of the workout and even did the bonus section.
I did better on ab ripper today. I thought the soreness of my tummy would be a deterrent but it really wasn't. I'm not as sore there as I was yesterday and it really only hurts when I sneeze, which I do all of the time because of my allergies. Still, on a lot of these I'm just straining and not doing the full move because I can't get all the way up off the mat. I don't want to cheat. But I definitely got higher today and tried with almost every count. I did much better on the reverse crunch type exercises where you lift your legs. These are easier for me in general and I was able to do a couple with proper form. Really this workout didn't put a strain on my super sore thighs so I was able to get through it.
Overall I feel that I am not halfassing the workouts and will get results. I need results to keep going though because I'm a instant gratification kind of girl. I'm not getting my cookie instant gratification and I've got to have something. I'm tempted to climb on the scale and have a look but I promised myself a week with no measurements so I'm not giving in. I'm working hard, I'm feeling the pain, so I feel good that I'm doing this.
I am pretty sore today, my legs and butt are really tender. But I'm taking that as a positive. I did some stretching first thing and took a walk before I went to work so I could keep my muscles loose. Today is Arms and Shoulders and I was looking forward to it. I know that you can't target a specific area of the body for weight loss but this is definitely a place that I want some definition. My flabby arms are the second most upsetting part of my body. I also have ab ripper. As much as I want to build that muscle, I'm hurting today pretty good. So I stood in front of my mirror starkers for a while before I put my workout clothes. I wanted to burn into my brain why I was doing this so I didn't half ass my workout. I think it really helped. I needed the extra motivation because my kids pretty much abandoned me to play with friends today so it was pretty much me against the pain without any lighthearted joking and encouragement. I really missed that today and it made my workout a lot harder. I wish I had a bigger living room so I could have someone else do this with me, but it's pretty cramped with one mat.
So shoulders and arms was mostly working with weights. These workouts are targeted more towards men who want to get ripped so it focused a lot on shoulders. I don't necessarily want to build huge shoulders so I stuck with the 8 pound weights. I didn't make it to the 12 to 15 reps on any of the shoulder lifts so I have plenty of room to improve there. Other lifts I did make the 12 reps so I think I might need to invest in a heavier set of weights. I think I'm going to by some 10 pound weights before next weeks workout. I'm already stretched pretty thin financially with just the cost of the workouts so it's not really feasible for me to go out and buy a lot of new equipment. I really liked the exercises that focused on that triceps muscle, that's where my flab is and those were hard. I dropped down to 5 pounds on the reverse ones so that I could do some. I made it to the end of the workout and even did the bonus section.
I did better on ab ripper today. I thought the soreness of my tummy would be a deterrent but it really wasn't. I'm not as sore there as I was yesterday and it really only hurts when I sneeze, which I do all of the time because of my allergies. Still, on a lot of these I'm just straining and not doing the full move because I can't get all the way up off the mat. I don't want to cheat. But I definitely got higher today and tried with almost every count. I did much better on the reverse crunch type exercises where you lift your legs. These are easier for me in general and I was able to do a couple with proper form. Really this workout didn't put a strain on my super sore thighs so I was able to get through it.
Overall I feel that I am not halfassing the workouts and will get results. I need results to keep going though because I'm a instant gratification kind of girl. I'm not getting my cookie instant gratification and I've got to have something. I'm tempted to climb on the scale and have a look but I promised myself a week with no measurements so I'm not giving in. I'm working hard, I'm feeling the pain, so I feel good that I'm doing this.
Monday, April 18, 2011
Day 2, 88 Days to Go
I thought that I would be more sore today. Don't get me wrong, I hurt, but not all over. I guess Tony's workouts really do target a specific area. My shoulders and Back hurt. And my tummy hurts. But the pain isn't so bad that I can't get up and get on with my day. I did some stretching first thing this morning so I wouldn't stiffen up and took a hot shower. As promised I had some egg whites for breakfast and some fruit and cottage cheese for a snack. Finally I used up the last of my tuna that I made yesterday and had another sandwich. But my blood sugar dipped about two and I mowed a cupcake...it was good. This is a drastically better diet for me even with the Lucky Charms and cupcakes so I hope I can stick to it. It wasn't that I ate so much more, I just didn't make good food choices.
When the kids got home we popped Pylometrics in the player and got started. My daughter Larrissa did the warm up with me before she got tired and went elsewhere. Pylometrics is mostly jumping around in all kinds of creative ways. My triple D breasts were a big pain in the butt. With a lot of the moves instead of doing to the arm motions I was holding onto my boobs. I wore a very supportive brand new sports bra that I bought especially for the occasion, but this is some seriously hard core jumping. Some of these, like the high knee jumps, I couldn't do. I know I looked ridiculous. I do not have good balance...my fat tosses me around. So I was much slower and did not look pretty like the demonstrators. But I kept going. I did not in any way keep up with Tony but I did keep going except when I was sucking down water. I'm glad I'm doing this in the privacy of my home because I don't think I would do this in front of people.
I think this workout mostly worked my thighs and butt. Cool. Tony had me get down low and squat for a lot of the jumps. My thighs were burning hard. It worked my abs too, maybe I was doing it wrong but I really felt my sore tummy muscles. I think a lot of these are going to help my flexibility and balance too. My son loved it. He spent at least twenty minutes jumping around with me. I have a twenty dollar walmart special workout mat that I don't think is going to cut it. Because it doesn't really cling to the floor it kept getting kicked up and in the way. Maybe I'll invest in a better mat soon.
I wouldn't have finished the race in the top ten, but I was still trying at the end of the video so I have to give myself some credit at least. Sticking with it and giving it my best is the hardest part for me so I just keep telling myself that it's only 90 days and I'll feel better. Maybe after 90 days I'll be used to the abuse and I'll just keep going. Time will tell. As for right now, I'm starving. I know it's because I'm burning a lot of calories and my body thinks it needs to feed itself. So I'm going to have some carrots and hold out to eat until dinner is ready.
When the kids got home we popped Pylometrics in the player and got started. My daughter Larrissa did the warm up with me before she got tired and went elsewhere. Pylometrics is mostly jumping around in all kinds of creative ways. My triple D breasts were a big pain in the butt. With a lot of the moves instead of doing to the arm motions I was holding onto my boobs. I wore a very supportive brand new sports bra that I bought especially for the occasion, but this is some seriously hard core jumping. Some of these, like the high knee jumps, I couldn't do. I know I looked ridiculous. I do not have good balance...my fat tosses me around. So I was much slower and did not look pretty like the demonstrators. But I kept going. I did not in any way keep up with Tony but I did keep going except when I was sucking down water. I'm glad I'm doing this in the privacy of my home because I don't think I would do this in front of people.
I think this workout mostly worked my thighs and butt. Cool. Tony had me get down low and squat for a lot of the jumps. My thighs were burning hard. It worked my abs too, maybe I was doing it wrong but I really felt my sore tummy muscles. I think a lot of these are going to help my flexibility and balance too. My son loved it. He spent at least twenty minutes jumping around with me. I have a twenty dollar walmart special workout mat that I don't think is going to cut it. Because it doesn't really cling to the floor it kept getting kicked up and in the way. Maybe I'll invest in a better mat soon.
I wouldn't have finished the race in the top ten, but I was still trying at the end of the video so I have to give myself some credit at least. Sticking with it and giving it my best is the hardest part for me so I just keep telling myself that it's only 90 days and I'll feel better. Maybe after 90 days I'll be used to the abuse and I'll just keep going. Time will tell. As for right now, I'm starving. I know it's because I'm burning a lot of calories and my body thinks it needs to feed itself. So I'm going to have some carrots and hold out to eat until dinner is ready.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
1 Day Down, 89 to go
Well I'm not going to be a first thing in the morning P90X'r. I started my day off with Lucky Charms. I know I know. Tomorrow I'm going to have an egg white omelet. I did have a nice snack of avocado and a healthy lunch of tuna on rye and a cucumber. Go me. Tonight I'm going to cook up a nice lean chicken breast dinner with some snap green beans. So I am planning on cleaning up my eating habits. I just needed the lucky charms to make me feel good this morning. I love my lucky charms.
I did my first workout at 3:00 in the afternoon and I'm thinking that's probably going to be pretty standard for me. I'm not an early riser so it's not likely that I'm going to get a workout in before work and I wanted to do it at a time when other people were home to kind of motivate me. I was pleasantly surprised how supportive my family was because I'm sure I looked absolutely ridiculous. But my kids did some of the exercises with me and didn't laugh at me. My 9 year old son was very impressed with Tony Horton and is excited about doing some pushups and pull ups so he can get a nice set of shoulders. Nothing like what's on the video, I don't want him to injure himself.
The first workout is shoulders and back. It's a long workout. I'm more of a twenty minute girl so it was hard for me to keep going and push all the way through to the end. It's mostly a combination of pull ups, push ups, and working with weights. I used the resistance band to do a modified pull up that I was actually capable of doing. It was hard. Really hard. These are not muscles I work in my everyday life. I was slow and didn't get in very many reps. But I did do some every single time that Tony did so I will get better. The push ups were also a great trial to me. I can get through about 2 and a half and spent the rest of the time just struggling. Now at first I spent my time with my nose buried in the carpet trying to get up off the ground. I promised myself I wasn't going to cheat and do proper pushups, from my knee's. But about half way through the workout Tony mentioned that I shouldn't go farther down than I can push myself up so the second half was spent with trembling arms going to the half way mark before trying to go back up. It was not a fun time for me. Again, I did some push ups every time that Tony did. It's not a big accomplishment but it's what I've got going for me so I'm going to focus on that.
After the absolutely brutal shoulders and back workout, I had to do the much shorter 20 minute ab ripper x workout. This was a little more familiar to me, as I've done ab workouts before. It was still very intense and I'm going to be feeling it, but it was definitely more inside my comfort zone. Still, I did not keep up with any of the demonstrators in the video. Again I promised myself I wasn't going to cheat so I didn't roll around and rock to make my situps easier. Some of the exercises I could do, others I could try to do. But I'm quite proud of myself that I kept on swimming to the very end. I was pushing myself just as hard at the end of the workout as at the beginning.
I drank 8 big glasses of water, my daughter was kind enough to refill for me. I sweated most of it right back out and felt disgusting and light headed until I jumped in the shower. I'm not really one for doing things that make me sweat so this is new territory for me. I'm sure I will hurt everywhere tomorrow but right now I just feel some burn in my shoulders and my back. I'll push play tomorrow at 3:00 for Pylometrics.
Go me.
I did my first workout at 3:00 in the afternoon and I'm thinking that's probably going to be pretty standard for me. I'm not an early riser so it's not likely that I'm going to get a workout in before work and I wanted to do it at a time when other people were home to kind of motivate me. I was pleasantly surprised how supportive my family was because I'm sure I looked absolutely ridiculous. But my kids did some of the exercises with me and didn't laugh at me. My 9 year old son was very impressed with Tony Horton and is excited about doing some pushups and pull ups so he can get a nice set of shoulders. Nothing like what's on the video, I don't want him to injure himself.
The first workout is shoulders and back. It's a long workout. I'm more of a twenty minute girl so it was hard for me to keep going and push all the way through to the end. It's mostly a combination of pull ups, push ups, and working with weights. I used the resistance band to do a modified pull up that I was actually capable of doing. It was hard. Really hard. These are not muscles I work in my everyday life. I was slow and didn't get in very many reps. But I did do some every single time that Tony did so I will get better. The push ups were also a great trial to me. I can get through about 2 and a half and spent the rest of the time just struggling. Now at first I spent my time with my nose buried in the carpet trying to get up off the ground. I promised myself I wasn't going to cheat and do proper pushups, from my knee's. But about half way through the workout Tony mentioned that I shouldn't go farther down than I can push myself up so the second half was spent with trembling arms going to the half way mark before trying to go back up. It was not a fun time for me. Again, I did some push ups every time that Tony did. It's not a big accomplishment but it's what I've got going for me so I'm going to focus on that.
After the absolutely brutal shoulders and back workout, I had to do the much shorter 20 minute ab ripper x workout. This was a little more familiar to me, as I've done ab workouts before. It was still very intense and I'm going to be feeling it, but it was definitely more inside my comfort zone. Still, I did not keep up with any of the demonstrators in the video. Again I promised myself I wasn't going to cheat so I didn't roll around and rock to make my situps easier. Some of the exercises I could do, others I could try to do. But I'm quite proud of myself that I kept on swimming to the very end. I was pushing myself just as hard at the end of the workout as at the beginning.
I drank 8 big glasses of water, my daughter was kind enough to refill for me. I sweated most of it right back out and felt disgusting and light headed until I jumped in the shower. I'm not really one for doing things that make me sweat so this is new territory for me. I'm sure I will hurt everywhere tomorrow but right now I just feel some burn in my shoulders and my back. I'll push play tomorrow at 3:00 for Pylometrics.
Go me.
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Brutally Honest Fat Girl
I'll admit it, I used to be one of those girls that we all hate. The skinny one who lived on Pizza and fried foods, who never exercised, and was always slender. You girls counting your calories and doing your situps comforted yourselves knowing that my unhealthy lifestyle would catch up with me. And of course it did, my metabolism crashed and now I'm struggling with my weight like the rest of the world.
I packed on the pounds but didn't worry too much about it, I was getting older. Than I looked in the mirror and had the most disgusting fat rolls. Jeans no longer looked sexy, they showed off my fat butt and thunder thighs. I can't wear sleeveless tops anymore. No one wants to see my floppy arms. I am deeply ashamed of the way I look. I'm being honest here, I'm not fat because I'm big boned. I'm fat because I've been unhealthy and lazy. I woke up and realized I was going to have to go up another size and
absolutely refused to buy bigger jeans.So I tried going to the gym and getting on the step machine. I tried some at home Pilates video's. But I saw no results. I'll admit I was half assed about it. Thinking I'm just starting out, I'll build up my endurance...lousy excuses. So my weight loss failed and I quit. I tried diet pills for about two days, I really didn't like the lightheaded jittery way they made me feel. I'm definitely not interested in starving myself. But I continued to gain weight. I noticed in the mirror that I have developed this really low roll of fat just above my unmentionables...it looks really gross no matter what I wear.
I want to be pretty again.
So I need something drastic that has drastic results. I'm committing to P90X. It's only 90 days of my life. I can do this.
I found some cool blogs, but none written by women so I thought what the hell...I'll write one. I'm hoping it will hold me accountable,
that I will continue because the world is watching. Please keep my butt in line.So I did my fitness test to see where I'm at and I'm pathetic. I'm 5'2 and weigh 175 pounds. I managed to squeak through the test half and half. I did the situps and the wall jump and the jumping jacks. Pull up, I maybe got 1/4. I did the three pushups, but totally cheated on the last one. The diet is definitely going to be a problem for me, it's all turkey burgers and egg whites. But here I go. I'm posting my before pictures. I'm hoping the humiliation will motivate me. Go me.
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