Day 3, P90X reboot

I only got through about half the workout yesterday before my life intruded so I decided to do it over today. I waited till everyone else was in bed so I could be uninterrupted. I think I'm going to get the most out of this only if I work and sweat and do it in one session. I'm not nearly as sore today as I was after pylometrics last time. Not to say that I'm not hurting but last time I could barely move. I want to make sure I'm getting my best out of these workouts. Tonight I ate light, Garlic Pasta Chicken so I could be on my best. The only thing about doing these workouts late is that I'm tired and dragging before I even hit the mat. On the other hand, I know I'm just going to put it off if I try to get up in the morning and do it.

I am feeling much more positive today and I like the Arms and Shoulders workout. Again I felt super good that I wasn't back on square one. Some of these I did a whole fifteen reps. I definitely need to get some heavier weights for next week. Other moves, I've got plenty of room for improvement. Some I did eight, others only five. I really like the moves that focus on the back of my arms. I want slender sexy arms for my super sexy wedding dress. But I feel that this a workout I'm holding my own in which is good for my self esteem which is kind of in the toilet right now.

The best part of Ab Ripper is that it is short. I'm improving here and feel pretty good about it. Weirdly enough the darn bicycling is the hardest one for me, crunchy frogs my favorite. Don't they use the same freak n muscles? I'm going to try a thicker mat because my darn back and hips really hurt during and after these exercises. I don't know that I can do anything at all about that, I've always had back troubles. I think a thicker mat is a higher priority even than heavier weights. I also like this because it's fast and feels more aerobic, like maybe it's burning fat and not just building muscle. I need to do something, but jumping around just hurts my giant boobs.

Has anyone ever tried a ECA stack? I've tried supplements before and I don't like feeling jittery and sick, but maybe I can add something to my diet to help me burn fat while I build muscle. Knowing myself though, if they make me feel lousy I won't take them.

Day 2, P 90X reboot

I spent all day putting out fires. Everything I touched today turned to ash. My business took a hit, I fought with my kids, my sister, my ex and my lover. Financially today was sucky. Everything that could go wrong did go wrong. But I did manage to get through Pylometrics with only five interruptions. I realize the workout probably is not as effective when done in more than one session but I figured it was better to finish it today, even in pieces, than to put it off till tomorrow. Since putting things off till tomorrow is my specialty, I don't want to fall into that trap again.

Maybe it's just me. I was pretty irritated so I found the workout irritating. I have a lot of things in my house that rattle. All that jumping around shakes my crappy floors. My balance is awful, being a big huge fat girl doesn't help me be graceful. I sweated and cursed and jumped for what seems to be half my damn day. And I'm glad. I'm glad I made it through my workout. This is the only way I'm going to get better. Next week when I do pylometrics maybe I won't about fall on my head every five minutes and have to go slower than everyone else because my equilibrium sucks. Maybe my thighs will be just a smidgen smaller so it won't be so impossible to get them into position. Maybe I won't be so inflexible that I can't get my legs up where they are supposed to be. I'm not expecting miracles, I'm just looking forward to it being better. I've got to make it through this week so next week I can see that it's better.

I'll probably be getting my roses tonight or in the morning so I should be a little less cranky and a little more bloated and sluggish. Tomorrow I won't skip breakfast and lunch and then binge on five chewy chocolate chip cookies and a huge glass of milk. So here is to getting through today's workout against all odds, and through doing well on tomorrows workout...cheers.

I'm a lazy quitter.

So after a long week and  half of grueling push ups and sit ups and jumping around and soreness, not to mention the healthy eating I climbed on the scale. I hadn't lost so much as a quarter of a pound. Not to be discouraged I broke out my tape measure and was shocked to find that I hadn't lost so much as a squidge, even on my fat arms and I've never done so many push ups in my life. I said I was going to keep at it...tomorrow. Tomorrow turned into a month. Which turned into longer.

I went out to eat with my fiance and my son last night at a popular restaurant and they spent the entire time ogling the beautiful women. I used to be the beautiful women. Now my fiance tells me I'm beautiful and sexy, but I have a mirror and I know the truth. He definitely could not keep his eyes to himself with some of these ladies and it made me feel disgusting and ashamed. So this morning I got up and popped in my Chest and Back video for P90X. I'm feeling disgusted enough with myself to try again. I'm not going to get any smaller and sexier sitting around feeling sorry for myself. Not to mention I'm getting married in less than a year and  have no desire whatsoever to be photographed looking like this.

I was pleasantly surprised to learn that I was not back at square one. I must have really added to my muscle mass with that first week because I was able to do several push ups and I think I need to move up to a heavier band for my pull ups. Again I didn't keep up with Tony, I didn't expect to. But I was definitely not as pathetic as I was on day one. I did about half the push ups, on my knee's after the first one, for all of the reps with the exception of the last couple because I was so wiped out. I also managed to do the entire set of the pull up reps except for the last few. I think before next week I'm going to invest in a heavier band because I know I'm not even close to being able to do a pull up. I was even able to do a couple of the dive bombers and I think those are the hardest ones. Not on my toes, but still I wasn't even able to execute one last time I tried this.

I was also better than my first time on the Ab Ripper X, though not as good as I was doing when I quit. I managed to do as many as 15 on some of the exercises...some of them more like five. Still, I sweated through till the end, even though I did take more  breaks than I did with the chest and back. And drank lots of water.

As for eating I started my day out with a cupcake and a bowl of lucky charms, not the most well balanced meal. My kids are gone for the weekend and I went with what was easy. I will try harder with my diet. This afternoon I plan to have a salad and tonight a turkey sandwich. I even plan to leave off the mayo and slap on an extra mater so it's not dry. I am however trying to cut down on the hours that I sleep, when I'm depressed I sleep more, and I need to keep it at about 7 or 8 hours. More than that is not going to help me feel any better.

So anyhow, here is to round two, not quitting, and not getting discouraged. Cheers.